The older I am, the more I am confused about the social world.
How odd is that?
I guess my brain and development is working backwards.
I honestly miss the old days when I was in school as a little girl.
Befriending people was easier and nothing was complicated.
Growing up, I have to pick up social cues.
Sometimes people do not mean what they say, and they say so just to be polite, and I am supposed to realise that.
I think it is possible to be straight forward but nice at the same time, but not many can do so.
I try to give my best, to love and to show genuine interest but it is harder for me to know if people are honest with me in the adults world.
Or sometimes my honesty just scares others away.
There is too much fear in the social world – fear of offending others, fear of being rude, fear of being left out, fear of being forgotten, fear of being used, fear of not replying and not getting replies…
It is honestly too much.
JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT. WHY IS IT SO GOD DAMN HARD FOR ADULTS?!